Been awhile since I wrote on here

Been doing therapy for a month now have wanted to quit a few times due to the copay I pay each time. I did miss my group Thursday cause I wasnt in the mood to go which I should of went. I hadnt had any bad days for awhile but Wednesday and Thursday were very bad. I cried off and on and had some thoughts that is why I am going to therapy so I can learn skills to overcome that. Living with BPD is not easy you constantly worry what others are thinking and its hard to trust others. The only person I can trust is my husband hes been with me for 14yrs and always stuck by my side. I love him dearly hes my best friend but I wish I had a female best friend. I have tried to make friends in the past but I always get hurt so dont want to be disapointed again. Well thought I would update you all.

Oh I broke down and let my oldest get a baby hamster probably shouldn't have but it was her birthday money don't see how its any harm but we do have 6 other pets I love animals they are therapeutic for me.

So I am to work on the Please Master this Week

PLEASE MASTER

Having ineffective health habits can make one more vulnerable to emotion mind. This skill is used to maintain a healthy body so one is more likely to have healthy emotions. It is an acronym that stands for the following:

PhysicaL Illness (treat): If you are sick or injured, get proper treatment for it.

Eating (balanced): Make sure you eat a proper healthy diet, and eat in moderation.

Avoid Mood-Altering Drugs: Do not take non-prescribed medication or illegal drugs. They are very harmful to your body, and can make your mood unpredictable.

Sleep (balanced): Do not sleep too much or too little. 8 hours of sleep is recommended per night for the average adult.

Exercise: Make sure you get an effective amount of exercise as this will both improve body image, and release endorphins (making you happier).

MASTERy (build): Try to do one thing a day to help build competence and control.

 

 

She wants me to take a walk each day for 20 mins if not longer that is simple for the exercise part

Wants me to watch what I eat and make sure I eat

My sleep patterns are all over the place so wants me to work on that alot

I dont drink or do drugs so the Avoid is not for me

I know if sick to go to doctor

And Mastery going to work on it means to work at something to do it better so I will read more or try to do more stuff like drawing

This shall be a fun week I have my group tomorrow and we are going over Opposite Emotions still taking me awhile to understand most of it but I believe once I get it that DBT will help me

Update

Well its been a week since I wrote on this. I have been to 2 therapy sessions and 2 grps so far and not sure what to think about it. Some of the woman in my group are really bad off. It saddens me to see them that way. I am lucky to have the support of my husband who has always been there for me. I know it will take time but I have fears of crowds and people and going to group is hard I am not one to open up. Its hard to talk to my therapist to cause I dont like talking about stuff. But I have to do this to get better. For the last three days I have slept so much because I am so tired and exhausted but also its an excuse so I dont have to deal with anything. I have my 3rd therapy session on Wed then group is next day. I have thought about quitting due to the fact I cant really afford it and not sure if its going to do me any good.