Someone free me from this pain
It feels like I am in a never ending chain
I hate myself for what I have become
Why is it that I feel so numb
Why has God done this to me
I just want to be set free
So hard to live when all you want to do is cry
Everyday I just want to die
But I know I am here
So for now I wont disappear
I have people counting on me
Particularly three
So I will go on with life
And try to be a better wife
But I will always feel this pain
Because its a never ending chain
Life as a fragile child
Life was hard being a fragile child
Don’t think I ever smiled
All my life I knew I was different
Felt as if my body and soul was never present
Feelings of being trapped in my own body
Always getting stares from everybody
I hated all the laughter’s from the kids at school
Why did life have to be so cruel
I never once had a true friend
Was to afraid it would end
Memories never fade away
They are embedded in your mind to stay
Why do kids have to insult
Because the end result
Makes the other person hurt
Always being on the alert
If I could go back to the past
I would make it so my smile would last
I wish I could erase all my pain
I feel as if I am insane
Always being that child in the back
Who most of the time got attacked
Things never go away you are scarred
Life was just so hard
Being the fragile child
Just want to be able to smile
Funny poem
I love to write
But man I need more height
I feel so small
When standing to those who are tall
What is up with kids being so darn big
I mean im 31 and I feel like a twig
My 11 yr old is in a size 6 shoe
What a way to feel blue
Shes going to be taller then me
By the time shes thirteen
What are they putting in foods these days
Is it some kind of secret glaze
Guess we shall never know the answer
Must be some kind of enhancer
Facing My Fears
Feeling depressed
Can’t get no rest
Feel so emotional
So hard to be social
Feel so sad
That’s its hard not to be mad
Get so much anxiety
That its hard to face society
Act out with anger
That I feel like a danger
Don’t like change
Because it makes me feel strange
Not many understand
That Depression isn't planned
Just want to be happy
So I don't feel so Crappy
Feel like Hell
With all the crying spells
I Know One Day
That life wont be so Gray
I can face my fears
and no longer shed tears
For I will be stronger
Because I will no longer
Be Sad Mad Angry Strange Or Crappy
I will be Happy
Not Going to be Afraid Anymore
Afraid of change
Afraid if wont get better
Afraid I wont love that things I once did
Afraid I wont be the same person
Afraid of Love
Afraid of People
Afraid of Trust
I will no longer be AFRAID
INSTEAD
I will be proud of myself
I will learn to change
I will get better
I will still love the things I once did
I will be proud of the person I will become
I will accept love
I will not be afraid of people
I will learn to trust
I will not be afraid anymore
A new day
Will not worry what others say
Will try to smile
to take that extra mile
Will combat this depression
With help with therapy sessions
So I can be a better person
Where others see a better version
Of who I can really be
And for once see me
I will think in the now
So I can know how
To be a positive person
And love myself more
Makes it hard to face Society
Living with Depression
Makes it hard to show expression
Living with Post Traumatic Stress Disorder
Makes you want to go crawl up into a corner
Living with Borderline Personality Disorder
Makes it hard to keep things in order
Living with fear of lashing out at anyone
Makes it hard to not want to run
Living with fear of loneliness
Makes it hard not to stress
Living with fear of what others think of you
Makes it hard not to feel blue
Living with Happiness
Will take away my stress
Living with no anxiety
Will make me be able to face society
Having no depression
Will show a smile as my expression
Having a personality disorder
Will not make me a lesser person
I will face my fears
Even if it takes me years
Being In LOVE
I know you know that this is true
As I sit here and think about the life we share
I think about how much you care
How we have spent our life together
Knowing that it will just get better
What I am really trying to say
Is that our love with get better day by day
In more words then less
The words I am trying to express
Is that I love you with all my heart
And I knew from the start
that we would never be torn apart
that deep down in my heart I knew
that I would always love you.
Have shed a lot of tears
Many didn’t understand me
And only seen what they wanted to see
Living with depression
Made it hard for those to handle my expressions
Not dealing with my feelings
Has caused me a lot of dealings
But a true friend
Will be there for you in the end
They will love you
They will not view
They will accept who as you are
They will not think you are bizarre
They will hold your hand
They will be there for you in the end
So even if I have lost friends over the years
I will have many more who will be there when I shed my tears
They will not judge
Or hold a grudge
They will accept what they see
They will understand ME
Sweet in her own little way
Humor is the name of her game
Excellent with everyone
Loveable by all
Best friends with anyone
Youthful and all
SAMANTHA
Sassy as can be
Awesome sister
Many love her
Angelic when she wants to be
Nice to everyone
Talkative as can be
Hyper most of the time
And stubborn as can be
JACOB
Joyful but rather stubborn
Apple of my eye
Cute as a button
Ornery most of the time
Blue eyes that shine
Feelings of depression
Life seems so uncertain
Feel like dying
Can’t stop crying
No one understands my pain
It’s a never ending game
Life has no meaning
Just feel like screaming
Just want to be normal
Not feel so abnormal
So worn out and tired
Wishes I could be rewired
So tired of feeling down
Always having a frown
Wishes I could laugh more
But hard when life seems like a chore
Trying to take it day by day
But life sometimes just feels so gray
Life feels so helpless
When you are a mess
Wanting to smile
To go that extra mile
Hate feeling so miserable
Don’t want to be labeled
Hard to hold in the anger
Don’t want to feel like a stranger
Hate the feeling of being alone
Cant even leave your home
Wanting to forgive
But its hard to live
Being Scarred
That everything is so hard
So hard to trust
When you have been unjust
Block out all the bad stuff
So others see you as tough
Feel so broken
Want to be outspoken
Feel so insecure
Wishes there was a cure
Loss of innocence
Such a great offense
Want to forget
Not feel so upset
Feel so confused
Child of Abuse
Times of happiness
Wish it would last
Smiles are often a rarity
Emotions just a variety
Sounds of laughter
Wish they could matter
Don’t mean to annoy
Rather be filled with joy
Dreams of the perfect life
Just want to be a better wife
Try to stay calm
To be a better mom
Try not to stress
You know the rest
Not really much to say
Not gotten mad
Or even sad
Day isn’t over yet
But I am willing to bet
My day will stay a good day
Because I will make it that way
When I say I hate you
I really don’t mean to
When I throw a fit
I really don’t mean it
When I lash out
I don’t mean to shout
When you try to console me
Its not that I don’t want to be
When I get angry
I don’t mean to be bitchy
When I cry
I want to let out a big shy
When I feel all alone
Its hard to feel like I am not at home
When I feel like I am in pain
I just want it to all go away
Will it ever go away
What about all this misery
Will it always be a mystery
Just wish I could stay the same
Not fell so insane
Feel like dying
But I gotta keep trying
Wish I could be free
But angry consumes me
Please take away this curse
But it will only get worse
Everlasting pain
Will it ever go away
I just won’t believe
Will I ever feel
Or is that not real
Will I ever know how to love
Or is that just way above
Will I feel emotions
Or just go through the motions
Will I ever get better
I just don’t feel like I matter
I wish I could feel like everyone could
But I am so misunderstood
What does it feel to be normal
And not feel paranormal
Just once in my life
I would like to be the good wife
Who can love smile and be happy
And not feel so unhappy
I worry one day he will leave
But I just don’t want to believe
So tried of feeling troubled
Find it hard to get out of bed
Please just take it all out of my head
But how can I
When all I do is want to cry
I know life must go on
Feel so withdrawn
Wonders how anyone can love me
When all I want to do is set them free
I feel so shattered
As if life doesn’t matter
Will anyone ever understand
That this wasn’t how I planned
What my life would be
I just want to be set free
No one understand the pain I go through everyday
Please just make it go away
Racing thoughts always in my head
Would rather they were gone instead
Sick of always being depressed
All it does is make me stressed
Always worrying what others think
I just want to be in sync
Why cant there be a cure
Tired of feeling so unsure
Just want to have one day
Where I don’t feel so gray
Everything seems like a blur
You don’t know what to expect
You just want everything to be perfect
When your child cries
All you have to do is look into their eyes
And they will become content
Knowing that this life was meant
To make you a better mom
When they are in your arms everything seems calm
Hate to see them hurt
But all it takes is some comfort
To know you will love them forever
And your life will never
Be the same once you become a mother
Please just disappear
So much agony
Such a tragedy
Sick of everything
So tired of aching
Please go away
Just want to have a good day
No one understands me
Especially family
I might seem fine on the outside
But I am struggling on the inside
Hard to get of bed some days
Tired of thinking what other say
Please just make it go away
I try so hard to love my life
Wondering why I cant be a better wife
I feel like I am not a good mom
But I guess I am better then some
I hate this stupid depression
But I guess its GODS lesson
What I wouldn't do to be happy everyday
So happy that it would always stay
Living with Mental Illnesses drains you
Everyday you feel so blue
I wish I could get rid of it all
Just want to get up and not fall
Afraid to be outspoken
Life can be so hard when you are broken
Wondering why I cant be a better wife
I feel like I am not a good mom
But I guess I am better then some
I hate this stupid depression
But I guess its GODS lesson
What I wouldn't do to be happy everyday
So happy that it would always stay
Living with Mental Illnesses drains you
Everyday you feel so blue
I wish I could get rid of it all
Just want to get up and not fall
Afraid to be outspoken
Life can be so hard when you are broken
Wife telling her husband Goodbye
Wishes I had one last day
To tell you what I want to say
But instead I wont have that chance
Or have just one last dance
Imagining you are not in my life
But I will always be your wife
Will miss you like crazy
My days will now be hazy
My life is now shattered
Nothing else will ever matter
You were my best friend
Even till the end
I will always love you
But I am not sure how I will get through
Not having you anymore
Or seeing you come through the door
I know one day I will see you again
But dont know if I will ever be the same
Till death to us part
I took those vows to heart
Will miss hearing your voice
But I know its gods choice
It was your time
You will always be mine
Will see you again
But the pain will never end
Life of a girl from a woman
Just being little girls
Pretty in pink
Always in sync
Loves to play with dolls
Or perhaps go to the mall
Likes to look pretty
To go out to the city
Starts liking boys
To young for toys
Wants to wear makeup
Feels so grown up
Has her first boyfriend
But those usually come to an end
Remembers her first kiss
How it felt like bliss
Finds that someone for life
Will one day become their wife
Cant wait till that day
When they are swept away
Cant wait to be a mother
Like so many other
Has her own little girl
Her own little pearl
Little girls are so wonderful
In a moms eyes they are beautiful
Copyright Teresa Criner
August 04 2010
Tired!!!!!!!!!!!
Tired of wondering Tired of worry
Tired of pondering
Tired of the same old story
Tired of feeling sad
Tired of having anger
Tired of feeling mad
Tired of feeling like a danger
Tired of feeling alone
Tired of myself
Tired of not being known
Its eating away at my health
Tired of being mental
Tired of feeling weird
Hate it when others are judgmental
Just TIRED period
Please go away
But it will all just be back the next day
